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Name: Jeff
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Birthday: 6/4/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Philosophy, Computers, Macintosh, Music Theory, Music in General
Expertise: Music Theory, Philosophy, History
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  HouserHavoc
Member Since:
10/18/2004
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| I suppose this is merely a part of "growing old," but I am at a position where I have no idea what to do.
Well, I mean I know what I want to do... it is just doing it. I'd like to do 'whatever I want' (which I haven't quite figured out) and grab some non-career jobs for now until I make money to travel places in the world. I feel that is what I want to do.
At the same time, I have very strong feelings of nostalgia and loss for the life I have not-yet left. I mean... this is a big step, no? Perhaps I just never found myself in an actual position of responsibility over my own life until now. Though at the moment, it isn't quite a complete position of responsibility at that. I need some drive. I need some reason to get out and go (boredom will eventually be my reason soon enough, but I am really good at doing nothing... seriously I could do nothing longer than some people could even dream).
Shit... I don't know. I suppose that is why I decided to do another Xanga blog. Just to spell out my thoughts and see what happens. What I want right now is: find a job at one of the bars right down the street from me.
Requirements?
Get out and actually go see about how to apply.
That is the hard part. I know living at the beach is 'great' and all (though I am more of a mountains person), but I always feel like this is just another vacation of some sort. It hasn't really sunk in that this is the beginning of a life. My life. No longer am I following the suite of another. Personal decisions...
I am not sure where to go from here.
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| by Robert Herrick
Gather ye rose-buds while ye may,
Old Time is still a flying:
And this same flower that smiles today,
Tomorrow will be dying.
The glorious lamp of heaven, the sun,
The higher he's a getting;
The sooner will his race be run,
And nearer he's to setting.
That age is best, which is the first,
When youth and blood are warmer;
But being spent, the worse, and worst
Times, still succeed the former.
Then be not coy, but use your time;
And while ye may, go marry:
For having lost but once your prime,
You may forever tarry.
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| Not as in, friends that are old. I think of all my friends as young!
But I am talking about people I haven't been able to keep in as close contact with as I have wanted. Mainly due to me not having an automobile really... or at least I can tell myself that and feel confident in my excuse.
Graduation is coming up... my life is about to hit a fork and I am definitely taking whatever road gets away from Shelby. I love(d) the place, but there is no way I can stay here. I feel like there is more out there and I am ready to at least look. I suppose holidays will still be a time in which I can return, hopefully for some Crimes-throwdowns on New Years and little Christmas parties here and there. Or if I am situated somewhere else, invitations for similar things.
Anyhow, after graduation this is the current plan: Drive up to Vermont to watch my brother run a Marathon (mainly just to visit... watching a marathon can't be too exciting). Afterwards, return to the House in NC in order to help Dad clean it up and fix it up in order for Mark and his wife to move in. Then I will be riding with him down to Florida to join my parents in Jacksonville. Now... what exactly will happen in Jacksonville is still up in the air, but I feel there are more opportunities overall down in Florida than in Nowheresville, NC. I do know that I will be spending the majority of the summer to study for the LSAT. Time not spent studying will be a mixture of nothing, and a job/internship (hopefully with a Davidson Alumn in the area). Now, after I take the LSAT and do satisfactory (only one go-round for that test... frowned upon to take it multiple times and scores are averaged rather than highest accepted) I will reach another point in life in which decisions must be made. Either staying in Florida... or returning to Berlin, Germany. Neither of those lead me back to Shelby, and if anything they take me even further away.
I was just thinking about how life is going to lead itself here in the next couple of months/next year, and I realized I need to meet up with some people I haven't seen in a long time if I want to see them before they/we settle too much.
Just another post of thoughts.
P.S: I am going to The Dead concert on Easter Sunday. Wooh!
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| The BBC believes most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books here. How do your reading habits stack up??
Instructions:
Look at the list and put an 'x' after those you have read.
( X) 1 The Bible
( X) 2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
( X) 3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
( ) 4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
( X) 5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
( X ) 6 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
( X ) 7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
( X ) 8 1984 - George Orwell
( ) 9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
( ) 10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
( X) 11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
( ) 12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
( ) 13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
( ) 14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
( ) 15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
( X) 16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
( ) 17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
( X) 18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
( ) 19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
( ) 20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
( ) 21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchel
( ) 22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
( ) 23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
( ) 24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
( X ) 25 The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
( ) 26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
( ) 27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
( X ) 28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
( ) 29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carrol
( ) 30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
( ) 31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
( ) 32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
(X) 33 The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe - CS Lewis
( ) 34 Emma - Jane Austen
( X ) 35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
( ) 36 The Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
( X ) 37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
( ) 38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
( ) 39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
( ) 40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
( X ) 41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
(X) 42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
( ) 43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
( ) 44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
( ) 45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
( ) 46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
( ) 47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
( ) 48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
(X) 49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
( ) 50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
( ) 51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
( X ) 52 Dune - Frank Herbert
( ) 53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
( ) 54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen-
( ) 55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Set
( ) 56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
( ) 57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
( X ) 58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
( ) 59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
( ) 60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
(X) 61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
( ) 62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
( ) 63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
( ) 64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
( ) 65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
( ) 66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
( ) 67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
( ) 68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
( ) 69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
( ) 70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
( ) 71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
( ) 72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
( ) 73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
( ) 74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
( ) 75 Ulysses - James Joyce
( X ) 76 The Inferno - Dante
( ) 77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
( ) 78 Germinal - Emile Zola
( ) 79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
( ) 80 Possession - AS Byatt
( X ) 81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
( ) 82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
( ) 83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
( ) 84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
( ) 85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
( ) 86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
(X) 87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
( ) 88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
( ) 89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
( ) 90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
( X ) 91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad-
( ) 92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
( ) 93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
( ) 94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
( ) 95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
( ) 96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
( ) 97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
( X ) 98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
( X ) 99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
( ) 100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo | | |
| Yep, can't really complain about too much.
5 classes my last semester senior year was an early fear, but so far this is a rare time in my life because I actually look forward to 4 (all except one) of my classes! Though, I am one of those that can find entertainment and joy from learning about a bunch of things, whether it be Chemistry of pigmants and paints to what makes up plants (which is surprisingly my favorite class this semester so far).
Outside of classes, the first two weeks of school have gone by somewhat slow due to having so much fun, rather than having not enough to do. In other words... many long nights with certain people. I am guessing this last semester will either be one of the best times of my life, or it will implode on itself and ruin the rest of my existence.
I've started my workout routines as well (Mon, Wed, Fri) according to Mark Ripptoe's "Starting Strength" (great read for anyone interested in the body mechanics behind barbell lifts) and so far so good. Every workout is a new personal record, due to the fact I really have never done a strict lifting routine in my life. I am hoping that I can keep up with the routine for the rest of this semester at least!
I start Mandolin lessons next Monday, and I cannot WAIT! The teacher is a really... interesting person. Rather folky, but not stuck-up folk musician. He is the real deal. He was explaining how he HATED people that played folk music in his early years, and went and learned classical then jazz styles, mixed it with bluegrass... and found folk (only from a different background, rather than going right into "folk" style he formed it from its roots again). I can't wait to start learning from him and I hope he pushes me. I've always wanted to start learning the Mandolin again, and this semester seems to be the right time to try it.
So... life is healthy (on the weekdays) and school is ok. Alles Gute! for now... until I have to start figuring out what to do with my life.
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